“ho i ove you no, dubedore”
它耗尽了我所有的感情和精力。
我看着他的眼睛，那双曾经明亮、迷人、微笑的眼睛，如今充满了痛苦和挣扎。我不禁回忆起那些甜蜜的夏日，带着激情，带着梦想，带着爱。
我记得阳光，记得影子，记得耳语，记得夜晚。
我知道我爱过他，或许，现在依然爱着。我知道我无法欺骗我的心，但或许，我可以背叛自己的灵魂。我该用 "背叛 "这个词吗我的身体曾经容纳一切，现在却变得无比空虚。
无意义、无望、绝望。
我试图寻找出路，却被蒙蔽了双眼。
被他，被爱，被毒药
没有他，我看不到未来。
同样，我也看不到拥有他的未来。
我将所有的感情收集起来，埋藏在心底，等候多年，直到有一天，或者某个深夜，我将它们重新全部拿了出来。我深深地沉浸于其中，细细品味，耐心地，品尝着苦涩，这是我无法抗拒的毒药，从开始，到结束。
但，这与悔恨无关，现实就是如此。
我只能继续走下去。
直到最后。
“you're a aone”
“ho i ove you no, dubedore”
it draed a y feegs and energy
i ook to his eyes, eyes that ere once
ight, charg, and sig, but are no fied ith a and strugge i can't he but reber those seet sur days, ith assion, ith dreas, ith ove
i reber the sunshe, the shados, the hisers, the nights
i kno i oved hi, and erhas, sti do i kno i can't cheat y heart, but erhas, i can betray y u shoud i e the ord "betraya" y body, hich once hed everythg, is no crediby ety
angess, hoeess, and deserate
i tried to fd a ay out, but i as bded
by hi, by ove, by oin
i udnt see a future ithout hi
i udnt see the future ith hi
i ected a y feegs, buried they heart, and aited for years, unti one day, orte night, i
ought the a out aga i irsed ysef deeythe, savourg, atienty, the bitterness, the oin i udn't resist, fro the begng, to the end
its not about regret, it is hat it is
the ony thg that i ud do ison andon
andon
unti the end
“youre a aone”